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I have been looking forward to junior high school and primary school life very different, and I really did. I would now be regarded as the most limelight class, the most powerful women, language teachers like me, the women students have to please me, but I do not feel so happy.

Our first class was a boy called George TAN, and my fellow students for only two years, Until now, I still remember him, just because he was right I said a few words.

In one case, a class of boys face a birthmark to the Li Xin wrote a love letter, and she laughs and After reading the love letter to the Lin Lan, Lam Laam watching as he read out aloud, whole class classmates laughed rock with laughter, that boys face turn from red to white, from white to red, the first has been so low on the table to paste.

See his appearance, I am on the surface and everyone a laugh, and my heart there is a loss of feeling sad, which is of himself in love with a persons results? !

George TAN suddenly asked me: Do you think it is really a good laugh it?

I stared, he has been sitting behind me, but we almost did not say, I only know him to learn very well.

He asked me: Do you think you and Lin Lan, Li Xin them together and laugh all day to tease others, emphasize their superior, very interesting? A persons good trampling the dignity of others need to create it? You Do not feel themselves to be very naive, very shallow it?

I can not answer, he said: Put your intelligence and energy to be used in a meaningful things. Finished, he hung his head reading, just as if nothing had happened.

Lin Lan is still reading a love letter, the class is still laughing, but he just concentrate on watching their own textbooks, quietly reciting the English words.

Until the bell sounded self-study course, his words still in my mind constantly wandering, on the study hall, I suddenly turned around and asked him: What is more meaningful to do?

He said: If you do not know the answer, and went to the school library to find.

Our school library? It seems I am really ignorant.

Between classes the next days activities, the first time I did not, and Lin Lan them a play, I went to the library. According to introduction, our school library is the best secondary school libraries throughout the province, the hardware first-class, spacious and bright, comfortable tables and chairs may be only sporadically a few students, George TAN in a corner reading. I do not have to disturb him, and himself a man walking in the library, looking upward, watching the tall rows of bookshelves, dense book, what is a sea of books, the first time I had experience, I did not read, nor did library, but left again after the library on the left.

Perhaps I have tired to deal with Li Xin of the exclusion, perhaps I understand that this is not what I want, perhaps a few words of that George TAN, I started, and Lin Lan their alienation, often to the library during recess activities, Hall reading, but a sudden, I still can not completely abandon them, my heart not strong enough, not sufficient to cope with loneliness, my vanity, I hate to leave, when combined with the scenery and their excitement, so between classes of activities time, I sometimes still, and they play together.

Li Xin likes to tell us which boys chasing her, the boys wrote her love letters to us. Lin Lan contempt for the eyes can be very warm tone, induced with Li Xin right for more.

I do not know what the state of mind is a kind of junior high school girls, perhaps the nature of authority and power in looking up, they do not see on the same grade boys, preferring the high-grade boys, Li Xin-time delivery to bring the same grade boys love letters to her, always disdain, preferring to say which high school boys and Trustee of the messenger, would like to invite her out to eat ice, about her to go to K song.